September 2018

First off, if you are reading this…thanks! Been going through quite a bit and my travel agent suggested writing a blog. A while ago, a good friend Lauren tasked me with writing something for her website. I was a bit hesitant but thanked her profusely afterwards as it was such a therapeutic experience and there is also power in sharing our stories. One last thank you for Bradley for helping me set up this blog!

As most of my friends know, about 7 years ago I started a weight loss journey that was a huge transformation in my life (151 lbs!). The process made me own up for everything in my life and be accountable for all my decisions (big and small) and where they have led me to. I took that opportunity to seek counselling for long held negative beliefs and issues I used to turn to food to deal with and numb myself.

I have always known the transformation was not over yet (is it really ever over?). I was not living the life I really wanted to, there was still some things to work out even though I had come a long way. A large part of this includes taking a few months to travel. No, this is not ‘to find myself’, more to expand myself. I wanted this opportunity to reconnect with literally EVERYTHING. Nature, animals, ocean, people and all the stars in the sky. The thought of selling my home, living out of a suitcase, traveling alone and showing up in every moment over 4 months is terrifying. And it is something I have to do. Life is lived outside of our comfort zones, this is where magic happens.

Over the past few months I have been working with my financial advisor, realtor, travel agent and I got an awesome life coach. I knew this process would bring up issues for me to work through and I wanted a bit of guidance throughout the process. While this plan has been in my head for a few years now, to actually execute on this was overwhelming. I would get chest pains and have trouble breathing when I thought about the whole process and the big picture. There were so many rabbit holes I would dive into mentally. I know if I kept this up, I would not get anywhere. My mantra now is ‘what is the next right step?’. Just do the next step, that’s it. Amazingly, a lot of things have fallen into place with this mentality.

That is the cool thing too…..as I am executing this, so much is falling exactly into place with ease. Letting go of the outcome and having faith in the journey. Never an easy thing to do as we all want control.